Gonna go catch come Zzz's (:

For some reason, he's all I've been thinking about.
I want him OUT OF MY HEAD!

Thank God I'm going to sleep.
Just please don't tell me I'm gonna be dreaming about him.

Gosh, that would be a nightmare. ha!

But he's just my bestfriend. I shouldn't be feeling these kinda things.
I mean like, I don't like him more than a friend.

So, Why is this happening to me? I've never experienced these kinda things before.
Sometimes, I wish the world could be put on a PAUSE, and time would be frozen.

I always thought... should I just leave someone, before they leave me?
Should I not get too close to someone, because one day... he/she might hurt me?

But really, I need him out of my head, my mind, but most definitely NOT out of my life.
Sometimes, I just need my mind to be clear, and nothing nor NOBODY is in my head. I don't feel like thinking about anyone right now.

I never really know what sorta things are happening in my life.
In school... I'm always wanting to be alone.
Hannah tries to make me laugh, most of the time it works.
Mitchel is... doing everything I want him to do...
He's making me happy, making me laugh, being my bestfriend, giving me hugs, doing our handshakes..

From Monday through Friday, people at school are all like, "Jan, are you sad?" "What's wrong?" "Go get Mitchel, he makes you happy!"

Yes, I'm sad.. I don't know what's wrong, AND I KNOW MITCHEL MAKES ME HAPPY!
Some people just don't always understand me, and I'm okay with that. Because not everyone in this world is smart enough to do that.

I need some rest.
Hopefully Hannah is praying that I would get better soon enough, so I would be able to go over to her house to see her new puppy! :)
Actually, hopefully someone is praying for me out there....
I know I am...

Goodnight.
I'll somewhat blog about my day tomorrow.

I want to capture all of these moments playing in my head. And never forget about them... Because one day.. for sure... these memories will all fade away...

I reminisce the past, cherish the present, and imagine the future...